♥ Venting and scrap doodles
venting today... (╥﹏╥)
Ahh I am very grateful to have a job, and to have the job I have, but I'd be a liar if I said I didn't struggle deeply to get up each morning and get to work. I'm a sleepy person so I never want to get up, but my boss and I just have very different styles of communication. She's from up north and quite curt and blunt, whereas I'm from the american south so everything has to be friendly, polite, and sometimes a bit vague to avoid being too blunt. Oftentimes it feels like she's really mad at me and I can't tell if she's genuinely mad or it's just the way she expresses general frustration. On top of that, today my head is hurting badly but there's nothing to do for it. I took my migraine medication and just have to hope it kicks in. I have on some quiet lofi music while I'm working today and a friend of mine is doing pomodoros with me via the internet, so those things are helpful. The reading room I work in is big and empty and has a huge glass wall that looks out into the student area; sometimes I feel like an animal trapped in a zoo enclosure in here.
What I mean to say is, I wish I could work this same job but for less hours. A four day work week would be amazing, or 30 hours a week. If only America could get around to making that kind of thing a reality. I would love to have more time for hobbies, chores, etc., and I think it would boost my enthusiasm for work. But between work, school, gym, housekeeping, family obligations, being social, pet care--sometimes it's just all too much. Making work a smaller part of the equation would be amazing. It's not that I want a part time job elsewhere--I love working in a library--it's just that I wish we could all spend less time at work in general. Sigh. In any case, my break is up, so back to doing pomodoros.
ok.... end rant.
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Anyway, now that that's off my chest........I made myself (Harmony) in Skyrim the other day and I have been thinking about a yumeship with Lydia. My bestie teases me because I clearly have a type (Lydia looks exactly like Kaidan when I draw her ksdljfds). I've been having a lot of fun with it, but coming up with backstories is so hard for me and canon Lydia has like 50 lines and no personality. So it's partially fun that I get to make all her story up, and it's partially frustrating! In any case, skyrim!Harmony is an ice mage and the last dragonborn. Going full Mary Sue for maximum fun. She is an ancient snow elf (or half snow elf, haven't decided) that lived back before Alduin was transported to the future, and she was frozen in magical ice by the goddess Kyne until the return of dragons. Kyne first gave the thu'um to humans in the past to help them combat the tyranny of dragons, so I thought it would be fitting that she froze the last dragonborn so that humans would have a chance again when dragons returned far in the future.
I think Lydia would be an ex-city guard, maybe bitter at the fact that she was assigned a housecarl job because she thinks it will be glorified babysitting/housesitting, but then she realizes the thane she's assigned to is the dragonborn............yuri eventually ensues. I want Inigo and Lucien to be there as well, being Harmony's wingmen, because that would be so cute...I've included a confused Inigo in the first doodle here because I couldn't resist drawing that cute face hehe. Anyway, enjoy some Lydia/Harmony (lymony? hardia?) scribbles that I don't feel like putting in my 2026 gallery section. Thank god the yuri keeps me sane.
