♥ Frustrated with health

venting today (╥﹏╥)

I'm having what we'll call a "Health Month," in which I have approximately one billion doctor appointments, blood draws, and rigorous new health guidelines to follow. Basically my hormones are out of whack and I have to take medication for it, which requires me to get lots of blood work done to test hormone levels at various times. Additionally, because of these hormone problems, I have a lot of trouble with my weight--so my nurse practitioner suggested I try a PCOS diet, where you eat little to no carbs and lots of fat. More on that in a minute. The other other health problem is my undiagnosed sleep disorder, which I am going to the doctor for today. So let's break down my crashouts one at a time

1. Blood draws

I'm so not looking forward to these. I've got to get them before and after taking hormone medications and then take a multi-hour glucose test which apparently makes you feel like shit afterward because your blood sugar crashes. I took the whole day off work for this one and it's coming up the week after I travel out of state for a wedding in the middle of nowhere. The middle of this month is going to be extremely hectic.

2. CARBS

THEY'RE IN EVERYTHING. I NEVER KNEW. I started tracking my food with an app so I can watch my macros and I feel so discouraged; basically everything has carbs. I didn't realize how much of them I was eating, so I do want to tone it down, but it's really difficult especially when you just bought groceries right before someone asking you to radically change your whole diet. I have food I need to get through, but many of them have carbs so I'm like. What am I supposed to do? I meal prepped beans and rice recently and have to get through it, even though that's the antithesis of what I should be eating. Man, even honey for my tea has carbs! Just a bit of honey!

3. So tired

I have an undiagnosed sleep disorder that's making my life really hard. I fall asleep at my desk at work sometimes, or, at the very least, come super close to falling asleep. I can feel myself nodding off or my limbs going weak, like right when you're falling asleep. I have terrible insomnia at night but could sleep like the dead at any point throughout the day. My partner thinks I've developed sleep apnea, I have wondered in the past about narcolepsy, who knows. All I DO know is that the sleep center wouldn't return any of my calls, so I've been struggling with this nonstop for a very long time without help. I finally just booked an appointment with another sleep center in hopes they'll actually help me rather than ignore me indefinitely. I'm supposed to see them today, so I hope things go well. I don't really want a CPAP machine but if that's the solution to my problems, I'll take it. I'm tired of being, well...tired. I'm exhausted constantly and have no energy for hobbies, chores, or exercise. I'm ready to feel rested.

So overall, I'm just going crazy trying to resolve my problems, and there's a big fat wedding in the middle of nowhere I have to drive 13 hours to in the middle of all of it. Sigh. Sorry for a blog post that's nothing but ranting, but it's so frustrating. I just want to feel rested and have some control over my weight. Hoping desperately I can get some things sorted out this month.